The Anxiety and Joy of Eating Alone, Les Bouchons

DSCN5613This is the whole restaurant, it’s that small.

There are some things I never do alone, like go to the movies, a bar or a “proper” restaurant. Ok, I’ve eaten at casual places alone, those don’t count; I’m talking about a place where you get served more than one course, linen (although I’ve noticed more restaurants forgoing tablecloth) and a wine list. I get self-conscious. I imagine people will think that I’m a loser with no friends. And in those first few weeks back in Singapore, that was the case. Not the loser part, but the part about not having friends, especially for lunch when everyone I knew was working.

During those first few weeks back, I gravitated towards comfort food, food that I was familiar with back in the States. I wanted a steak, I was looking to taste Peter Luger’s again and relive my Williamsburg. So I chose Les Bouchons, sure it’s a French bistro and nowhere near what Peter Luger’s is, but they specialized in steaks.

I walked in and requested a table for one, feeling very, very self-conscious. The waitress didn’t make it any better when she didn’t get it the first time.

“Excuse me,” she said.

“Table for one,” I muttered, a bit louder and clearer.

God I felt so bad saying that.

They sat me at the corner. Luckily they just opened and there was no one here. Yet.

The waitress brought the single-sided menu that had corks, the namesake of the restaurant, dangling from the top. (Bouchons also refer to a specific type of bistro in Lyon.) I saw the limited bill of fare as a good thing. Sometimes a restaurant tries to do too much, better a few standards done well.

I ordered.

DSCN5564Terrine Maison with Pork and Chicken Liver

I was munching on some bread when two Brits walked in. I could feel them staring at me. The restaurant is so small that I heard almost everything they said and fortunately they weren’t talking about the guy in the corner. Still I felt anxious. I didn’t know why I was here; I should have just waited for the weekend and come with a friend. Shortly after, my starter, two thick slices of pork and chicken liver terrine arrived. The anxiety started to melt away as I tasted the rustic and satisfying dish. The livery taste was assertive but not overpowering. I liked it. I particularly loved the cornichons on the side of the plate, which provided a counterpoint to the gaminess of the terrine.

DSCN5571Grilled Rib Eye Steak with “Vigneron” Butter

Three German-speaking people walked in. I felt self-conscious again. But I didn’t have to dwell on it as my steak arrived and I focused on the enjoyment of devouring the rib-eye. It was a very decent steak in a city that serves lousy ones. But it was still plagued by bad practices that are rampant in steak serving restaurants here. One being the crisscross grill marks on the meat. It might look nice and dandy, but it does very little for the flavor of the beef. The grill marks limit the surface area of char, which in turn limits the Maillard reactions that create flavor. Give me a steak with more sear, especially since beef in Singapore, which is almost never dry-aged, is bland. The other bad practice was that they (and many others) cut the rib-eye annoyingly thin.

I was impressed though, with the excellent fries. They were the perfect size, not too thick or thin, and had a crunch on the exterior yet were fluffily yielding on the interior.

I was enjoying myself.

DSCN5574Lime sherbet with Calvados = Win

I was in such a good mood that I decided on dessert as a treat even though it was a tad expensive. $16 for lime sherbet with iced Calvados? But when the sherbet came with a towering shot of Calvados, I knew where my money was going. The waitress poured it over my sherbet, turning it into an alcoholic slushy. It was wonderful after such a heavy meal and a hot day.

One of the joys of eating alone is that you don’t have to make plans. A few weeks after my first visit, I was going though a period of headaches. So one day I decided to drop by Bouchons again. Maybe a steak would succeed where paracetamol failed.

DSCN5608Burgundy Escargot with Garlic Butter

I felt uncomfortable again, but between my headache and the delectable escargot, which I ordered to start, I wasn’t as bothered as the last time. I don’t think I could feel anxious as I worked my way thought the snails, which sat in a pool of garlic, butter and parsley. There was something in there though, peeking beyond the garlic and butter that was slightly sweet and tangy, mustard maybe. It really elevated the dish. I mopped up the rest of the sauce with my bread.

DSCN5611Close up

This time I ordered the large rib-eye done medium rare. I was still looking for that Peter Luger taste, which I hoped to find in the steak as it was from the States and grain fed. Plus I wanted something a little bit heftier that the thin excuse of a steak from the last time. I was impressed with the size of the steak; it was big and had the requisite height. Unfortunately it was rare, bordering on raw. I ate it; I usually never send underdone steaks back because I still prefer it raw than overcooked. It would have been a decent steak if it were done right, even though it was missing that mineral tang of a prime dry-aged steak.

DSCN5614U.S. Grain Fed “XL” Rib Eye

One drawback of eating alone is that if you get something bad, there isn’t anything to distract you from that fact or pleasant company to make up for it. 

DSCN9769Condiments for the steaks

But Bouchons redeemed itself on my third visit. It was in October of last year and I brought K-Dubs there for his birthday dinner. We were both craving steaks and regardless of my previous meal, I still believed in the place. I tried the sirloin just out of curiosity. I’m usually only a rib-eye kinda guy and don’t swing that way. But as I ate the sirloin, I could actually taste the beef, it had an assertive flavor that the rib-eyes at Bouchons lacked and it was also a much thicker cut, satisfying my height requirement. And l love the strip of gristle and fat on the sirloin. (Sorry no pictures, was there to celebrate and not blog.)

DSCN9765Salad, which you get with your meal.

I went back a month ago to have that sirloin again. It was still good, but I could have sworn it was a little less thick. A recession cut maybe? This time I’d been used to and in fact, enjoy dining alone.

DSCN9768Grilled Sirloin Steak with Herbs

When I’m eating something delicious I like to share it, like a funny joke, with someone. I’m always portioning out my food. So it’s with private, guilty pleasure that I love eating by myself. I don’t have to share, and everything is mine.

DSCN9770Cross section

And being by myself, I enjoy the food more. I can focus, I’m not distracted with talking to someone, or worried if they are enjoying themselves. I can concentrate and savor each bite. The experience of dining alone is pure. The food, or rather the perception of it isn’t influenced by dining companions.

I especially love eating alone when I’m having an extended meal in the hands of a capable chef, like a recent 12-course meal with chef Wylie Dufresne when he was in town for the World Gourmet Summit or the degustation at Jaan with chef Andre Chiang.

I read that at The French Laundry, solo diners get VIPed. 

DSCN9772New menu, can you spot the difference between the old menu below

DSCN5567Old menu from more than a year ago, I’m not talking about the different color of the font. Look harder.

I was meeting a good friend for lunch one day at Tatsuya, we hadn’t seen each other in a while and we always have tons to talk about. But I was having the Omakase and I have to admit, I would have enjoyed it more if I were alone. It wasn’t her. I had a great time with her, something that always happens when we meet up. But because of that, those precious, singular bites of exquisite sushi took second billing.

There’s a quote from author Michael Ruhlman that I’d like to share. It’s from his book The Reach of a Chef. Specifically it’s from his first meal, a 28 course culinary adventure, at Trio, chef Grant Achatz’s testing ground before opening Alinea.

Here it is:

“I take notes throughout a meal like this, which is especially pleasurable to experience alone – the only way, as far as I’m concerned – I’d have been frustrated if anything beyond the food demanded my attention.”

 

Les Bouchons

7 Ann Siang Road

Singapore 069689

Tel: 6423-0737

Open noon to 2 p.m., for lunch, 7 p.m. to 11 p.m. for dinner Monday to Friday. 7 p.m. to 11 p.m. for dinner on Saturday. Closed Sunday.

Recommended Dishes:

Escargot, Sirloin.

Price Range:

Appetizers $16, Mains $32.80, Desserts from $10-$16 (although the dessert prices are from last year. I don’t know if they increased it by $2 like the rest of their menu. That was the difference between the two photos of the menus.)

 

Happy Birthday!

DSCN0020The Importance of Salt turns one today! 

Homecoming

DSCN4112My first meal “back” in Singapore

Homecoming. It’s a word that until a few years ago I wasn’t very familiar with. I mean I knew what it was, there was homecoming at my American high school in Taipei, but it wasn’t until college at Syracuse that I understood what it stood for. At first I thought it was just guys trying to relive their college days, hoping to score some co-ed pootang. After a while though I realize that there was something deeper that draws back the old SU folks. Perhaps it is familiarity, or perhaps the sense of “growing up,” my four years there were formative and influential. Perhaps it is the bond of friendship. Every year hundreds of people feel the pull of these factors and return to a place they once called home.

DSCN4116Fish head steam boat – Can you identify all the ingredients?

My homecoming to Singapore couldn’t be more opposite. First it wasn’t so much of a pull but a push to go back. All my friends were in New York. The only people I knew back in Singapore were my army buddies, the side effect of having spent most of my adolescence overseas. My mom and dad weren’t there too. Singapore wasn’t familiar. I left when I was twelve and only came back for a year and a half plus my two and half years in the army.

DSCN4123I heart charcoal

But the unfamiliarity sweetened the bitterness of leaving the place where I wanted to spend the rest of my life. On the first “proper” night back to Singapore (I had come back a couple weeks ago, but reported immediately for military training then left to visit my parents in Brunei,) my mother, who flew back with me from Brunei wanted to try a fish head steamboat restaurant which was featured on the Asian Food Channel. It was my first time eating that exotic version of a fish stew. And though I didn’t know it at the time, that meal came to represent what my return would be like.

DSCN4135Delicious demi glace like sauce after all the heat and reduction.

I was surprised by how much I liked it. There was so much going on from the various ingredients in the metal vessel. Was that a salted sour plum in there?  Pork with the fish? I couldn’t help but be excited to taste the forgotten flavors of my home. And as the charcoal continued to boil off the stock, it changed from a clean tasting soup to a robust demi-glace like sauce.

DSCN4121Fish Face

It’s funny, when I was younger, I had everything planned out – high school, army, college, then live and work in New York.  Well one of the hardest things about growing up though is that sometimes things don’t go as planned.

Maybe coming back to Singapore isn’t an exile but my version of Walden, “to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life,” or at least to slurp up the gelatinous face of a fish.

The Writing Process

DSCN4066This blog wasn’t a spur of the moment decision. The stories you’ve read up to now have actually been planned months in advance. I used my time in Brunei to chronicle my journey of leaving New York and to sketched out the progression of this blog. Here is a look at my writing process:

I’m pondering an angle  for a blog entry in my dad’s lab, the best place for me to write… 
However out of the corner of my eye I notice…

 

DSCN4075Ethyl alcohol right next to my glass of mango juice.

 

DSCN4072I have an idea…

 

DSCN4080What if i added the two together?

 

DSCN3823The alcohol is pretty potent stuff. It’s used to preserve the spiders in my dad’s lab.

WARNING! Do not try this at home kids. Consumption of Ethyl Alcohol leads to blindness and death.

 

DSCN4079The bottle even comes with a convenient little spout. Just squeeze! Brilliant!

 

DSCN4082Mmm Yum!

 

DSCN4086This should help with my writer’s block! Love the spout design. They should bottle beer in this.

 

DSCN4098(Buzzed) I wonder what’s new on Facebook…

 

DSCN4101ZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz drool… zZZzzzzzz

Brunei Bites: Satay

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There is something I love about meat on a stick. There are different variations all over the world but my favorite still has to be satay, meat marinated with lemongrass, shallots, coriander, cumin, turmeric and cinnamon, and grilled over a charcoal fire. In Singapore however you can only get beef, lamb, chicken and if you go to a chinese stall, pork. But in Brunei you can get satay consisting of other animals and also different cuts and parts like the skank or intestines. Delicious.

dscn2942Unfortunately didn’t get a good shot of the main plate which had more variety that on this plate.

dscn2951Charcoal, meat and fat. The ingredients of deliciousness.

dscn2938Ostrich meat!

dscn2955And I’m done

Weird Food: Baby Hammerhead Sharks

DSCN3921Three Hammerhead pups and another baby shark at Jerudong Market in Brunei.

I didn’t think wakeboarding was going to be so hard. All I needed to do was stand right? It’s not like there were skis to keep together. Well for more than an hour my brother and I just floated in the water while waiting for the boat to circle around and pick us up after another failed attempt. We were in a cove 15 minutes by boat from our launch site at Jerudong Market. As my brother climbed aboard so I could go float in the water again, I asked him if he thought that there were sharks in the murky water. It wouldn’t be a problem if I could stand up, but as soon as the boat got going, I would attempt to get up and just lose control and fall. Then I’d trash around to unfasten my feet from the board. Pretty appetizing for a shark huh? My brother just shrugged his shoulders.

A few days later my mom and I went to Jerudong Market to see what the fishermen were bringing in at the end of their day. I think we were a little late as they had offloaded all the fish and their long narrow boats were all tied up together.

We settled for walking around the market and I was surprised to see these hammerhead pups! The fishing boats are small, it’s only wide enough to sit one, they aren’t covered and are propelled by a single outboard motor. I doubt they have much range. These sharks were caught very close to shore, probably near where we were wakeboarding!

But as I looked at these baby sharks I felt pity that they died like this. I mean I don’t mind if someone caught a mature shark to eat. It would have had a chance to reproduce already and contribute to the shark population. But catching these babies just depletes the population at a much faster rate. I wonder if someone would even buy them. I wouldn’t know what part of the shark besides it’s fin would be edible or at least palatable. The sharks weren’t even iced and I read somewhere that shark meat spoils fast as they develop an ammonia like taste once they die.

I don’t like sharks when I dive, well ok I get really excited when I see them, but I’m not going to lie, if I saw a really big one I would be scared shitless. And I’m not going to be a hypocrite to say that I don’t eat shark’s fin, because I do and I find it delicious. But this just seems sad.

 

Night Life: Kota Kinabalu

DSCN2474It’s a real meat (fish) market

DSCN2415Fresh Fish!

DSCN2420They all look good, even if there is no refrigeration or ice.

DSCN2422A Parrot fish. Isn’t it supposed to be poisonous?

DSCN2423Sting ray = Yummy!

DSCN2467That’s a really long fish.

DSCN2468The most popular fish in the market.

DSCN2470Beautiful

DSCN2473Sashimi?

DSCN2433This is want I do to get shots of food. Fish blood, guts and gore on my shorts from the “spray” of the fishmongers. I felt it on my legs too…

DSCN2463Produce section

DSCN2481Langsat, has a subtle grapefruit like taste but is really sweet.

DSCN2488Can you spot the chicken butt?

DSCN2489I love the smell of BBQ at night! (Inhales) Smells like BBQ!

DSCN2490Look at all that food and then multiply it by over a hundred stalls and you will get an idea of what kind of food orgy this place is.

DSCN2494Want some Tomato CATchup? A kitten snoozing next to a pail of ketchup.